Spare Me ~ The Feeling

Look at you go

You've got the rest in tow
The best thing going
And you know

Look at you go
You come and the highs seem low
The quick seem slow
And you know

And every time that I laugh
Though I really wanna cry, you know
And every time that I tell you
I don't care and I lie, you know

'Cos you've got everything on me
And I've got nothing on you
Yeah, and it terrifies me
Tell me, what I can do?
If you won't play fairly, then spare me

Look at you go
How could I stop you now
Or slow you down?
This is your town

And I'll never be untruthful to you
Deceitful or cruel
'Cos you'd just see right through
And that's why I can't fool around with you

And every time I can't say
What I really wanna say, you know
Yes, every time just a trace
Of that look on my face and you know

'Cos you've got everything on me
And I've got nothing on you
Yeah, and it terrifies me
Baby, what can I do?
If you won't play fairly, then spare me

'Cos you've got everything on me
And I've got nothing on you
Yeah, and it terrifies me
Baby, what can I do?

'Cos you've got everything on me
And I've got nothing on you
Yeah, and it terrifies me
Baby, what can I do?
If you won't play fairly, then spare me

Trusting in GOD

So today started off as a great day. I was bored at work (but grateful to have a job to get up for) and spent a lovely dinner with a friend. Then I called my mechanic to give him the list of things that have gone wrong with my car since he last touched it. After receiving his response, it took the strength of God to make me hold my tongue and not cuss him out and loose my temper. After venting to my sister, we came up with a little game plan for what to do about my car. 

I, also, decided not to worry about it at all. I may not pray or read my bible as often as I should, but I still have full faith in God. And as my anger subsided I remember my Pastor telling me to give all my troubles and stress to God. I made a firm stand in my mind and heart that I was not going to stress about my car and that God would provide some way and some miracle for me to be able to afford and maintain with the added cost of a car.

I looked up a few verses to give me some added strength and conviction to my decision and then found this post on Facebook from a friend of mine. I decided to share it below. It really drove home the fact that no matter how crappy my day is, no matter how depressed I may be feeling, no matter what foreboding thought or feeling is going through my head, God is with me and fighting for me each step of the way. I am grateful I have someone fighting for me because some days I don't feel like the fight is worth it anymore. 

Thank you God for always fighting for me even when I loose faith in you and in myself. Thank you for loving me even when I am difficult to stand and am probably undeserving of the love and blessings you bestow upon me. Thank you for providing for me even when I can not find a way and reminding me that I need to continue to trust you no matter what. Thank you for protecting me each day and continually reminding me that I placed my life in your hands and that you take that task very seriously (even more seriously than I do). Thank you for all the things you do for me, seen and unseen, and know that I appreciate it even when I don't act like it. In Jesus' Holy Name!!!

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Me: God can I ask u a question?

God: Sure
Me: Promise u won't get mad
God: I promise
Me: Why did u let so much stuff happen to me today?
God: What do u mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late,
God: Yes
Me: My car took forever to start,
God: Okay
Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait,
God: Huummmm...
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call.....
God: All right
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did you do that?

God: Let me see, the Death Angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of the other angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that.
Me (humbled): OH
GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
Me (ashamed).........
God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.
Me (embarrasses):Ok
God: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.

Me (softly): I see God
God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I'm sorry God
God: Don't be sorry, just learn to trust me.....in all things, the good & the bad.
Me: I will trust you
God: And don't doubt that my plan for your day is always better than your plan.
Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, thank you for everything today.
God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I love looking after my children......